hello everyone! yesterday was a truly amazing day. went to thomson plaza to eat fishball noodles with austin. (yes, he came all the way just to eat noodles) anyway, went to the PC fair after that and got myself a nice laser printer and got a free mp3 to go along with it. the printer is really nice and now i dont have to rely on other people to help me print out my stuff. yup. i just set it up and thanks for the paper aus.. well, i better get back to work, got alot to do. yup. sorry for this short post, i'll try to write a longer one next time. and sorry for the emo post.. heh

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oh and i forgot to add that mel is totally jealous of my new toys.. haha. especially the mp3 player. austin got one too and he found out its the samsung s2. go check it out. quite cool and it's kinda only available in Korea now.

this is really stupid.. i hate life now.. and i hate everything to do with it.. school, work... yes, my life now consists of work and schoolhomework.. studying for the terms seem to be a neverending chore and i can only slave day by day. unable to set foot out of the house as much as i like, i feel trapped, trapped in this prison that's also my house. just sitting at my desk writing page after page of article evaluation or doing my comprehensions while my dad's behind me breathing down my back about revising for other subjects. during the term, i've been looking forward to the holidays, but now that the holidays have come, i dont see what there is to look forward to. its even worse than school, because i do not have any companionship while i slave away at my desk.

i'm sure there are other people out there suffering like me or even worse than me. well, i know how you guys feel and it really isnt a good feeling. it really sucks to feel down all the time. if you know me well, you'll know that i've changed. the remy that you know is the cheerful remy, full of life and happiness. well, that has changed and im very sure i have changed for the worse. well, it cant be helped and i doubt if anyone can help me. i just have to see how im able to survive for the rest of the holidays or even the rest of my life in j1 or even the whole of my jc life. i guess i just have to grit my teeth and continue on with this crap cause i have chosen this path for myself and i do not want to add this time to my long list of regrets.

now, i've got no choice but to continue on with my sad black and white life, not leaving the house and expanding my social circle. not going out with friends but having dates with my work instead. spending long hours at home and seeing the world outside only once in a while when i go for tuitions or the occasional time i go out. how i wish time would revert back to the time when life was fun and joyous and there was a reason to smile. i still have many reasons to smile but they're not coing my way.

sorry for posting this emo post but i can't help it as this is the way i'm feeling now and so i post as i feel. sorry once again and that's all i'm going to type. bye and i really hope that by the next post, i'm able to turn my life around and i really hope that i become the old remy, cheerful once again. if i do become like that in the future, then i really look forward to it. bye reader.

anyway, i have no idea what to post and soo i shant write this very long. well then, i guess this is it. haha, bye reader..